This revelation is the success of a man

I am always thankful for Your kindness – You do not pressure for performance but encourage always for us to be together under any circumstance. I don’t know if our relationship is as all relationships with You should be – sometimes I get the sense that ours is at a beginning level, and maybe has been for all these years.

I wonder if there is more depth to be discovered or if where we are is where we have always wanted to be – that it is sufficient as it is. But then I realize there is much more – places unknown, thoughts unexpressed, desires unmet. Yet in all it seems to me that there is a level of response from You that remains the same, under any circumstance in my life.

Is this what our relationship is to be? I’m not complaining – I would give all to be in this place with You. Is there contentment for You too? Do you wish I would seek for more? Is there more You would wish to do through me? Do You see the lack of my enthusiasm for the greater, the deeper, the challenge of a life in You unfulfilled, and wish I would be consistent in seeking for more?

Or are these just my thoughts of guilt, for the lack of the pursuit of depth, of commitment, of dogged persistence in the face of all for everything You would want to do through my life? Sometimes I think the greater will not happen because I do not have the greater dedication or ambition.

You judge our relationship as you judge all of life. You see the great accomplishments of men, their dedication of pursuit in the face of great odds against success, their depth of commitment to their craft. And you measure your success in life, or lack thereof, against what you see in theirs, believing this is what life is to look like.

Even in spiritual matters you judge the same. Is this the truth? You believe that if all men were to move as you that nothing much would be gained, or accomplished – no discoveries, no progress, no overcoming. As you see you believe.

You have desired to be with Me, and have gained much within your heart as that has happened, yet feel it insufficient – that I would expect more from you for having come this far with Me. Men move in their desires – have you not done the same? Men seek accomplishment – have you not succeeded in the same way? Men seek for the prosperity of their souls as they seek for the progress of all men – have you not sought the same? Is not a walk with Me the apex of all the desires of man – and you are there?

Do not belittle our relationship, for I have sacrificed all that it might be just as it is; it is never about accomplishment, of success, of a contentment of heart for a job well done. No, it is always to be about this – this place of meeting, this oneness of heart, this growth of spirit, this revelation of the kingdom among men. In this revelation is the success of a man, not in what he does, but in what has been done for him. This place, this oneness, is what I have sought for him, sacrificed for him, that I might give it to him.

Most men seek otherwise, with seeming success, with greatness seen in the eyes of others. Yet, I have seen your heart, and the greatness therein, of the sacrifice and desire to be with Me – I would see you accomplish nothing else. Yet in that one thing is the release of all things you would desire to accomplish.

You are impatient, and that is good, for you know the potential of our relationship. Yet I cherish this moment, perhaps a moment of nothing appearing to happen, at least in your eyes – but in Mine all things of My heart for this moment are released because of your desire to be here above all else. You do not see the full potential of this moment, but in due time, you shall.

And then you will be grateful of the sacrifice of your heart, your time, your desire for Me. And in return I shall give all of Me to you, as I have from the very beginning.