Seeing what My heart is desiring and creating it

Day 225

I have seen over the last couple of weeks Your last words coming true within the circumstances of my life. From travels, to sickness, to the passing of my friends – I have seen life moving ahead by the choices I have made within these circumstances. Did my travels lessen my interaction with You, and should they? Did I move through sickness with the power of healing available within? Did I do all within my capability of belief to overcome death? Should that have been the effort?

I have seen all differently than in the past. And in all I have seen my desire for Your presence in each, aware that is the difference I would come to know, not just in these but in all things. I sensed the possibilities, and not the succumbing to circumstances; I sensed a presence and not a loneliness; a change, and not an ending with life moving on to something else.

I believe all could have moved differently than they did, and perhaps, ended differently. But it is with that expectation within the future that moves me forward with You.

I hear the cry of your heart: could outcomes have been different if I had done something to alter the circumstances? Or could I have moved upon you, that through you those same circumstances might have changed? It is the belief that power resides in Me alone, that men are powerless within themselves, yet have the desire to move upon My heart that theirs might be settled.

I am not indifferent to your feelings, your hopes, your desires. I know you pray for different outcomes than what you have experienced. And I feel for your struggles as you move through circumstances you would wish to see differently from the past, yet sense maybe there is never to be a difference at all.

Yet, you have changed. You are now intimate with your circumstances, as am I. You have moved deeply within them to discover the Wisdom contained, to discover possibilities never witnessed before. You have seen compassion for others rise within – 'What can the kingdom reveal through me that would bring goodness to what I see, to who I see? It is now beyond what would I want God to do, to what can be revealed through me, of me'.

And that is My attention: will he come to know who he is that he may change the circumstances of life to that he wishes to see, to create? This is not deciding what is needed and requesting it from Me; more, it is seeing what My heart is desiring and creating it. That is a closeness we have not experienced together in its fullness yet, but we shall, as we move deeper into the events of your life. Remain close within these events and you will know, as you are known.