Freedom is release from having to know

Day 239

Will he want to stay here?

If here is being with Him, seeing as He does, and sensing an awareness of peace, and even more than that, an extension and appearance of Him within, and a fullness of me within Him such that all things are seen as they are, even myself, then yes, I would want to stay here.

I continually deal with the idea of Him moving into my circumstances of life – rather than my moving from within His realm of Spirit, as if the two were separate. They are not, but the flow of direction I think is important if I would create differently, and from a different place of awareness.

Will he find purpose in what cannot be imagined?

I am used to seeing something that motivates action – something to pursue, to accomplish, to possess. I fear that I have done that with Him: have I desired the ‘things’ of earth and used our relationship to bring about that which I would want? Do I begin to see that changing things here on earth is not the purpose of my life, but that releasing myself into His hands will fulfill any unknown purpose I might really want? It’s a leap to let go.

Will he accept what cannot be comprehended?

Even now I ask, when I do not see the interaction of Creation upon my circumstances, should that be the way of seeing? Or should I release all into the moment of being with Him, and that alone, and then watch for how He moves within those circumstances with no expectation for how they should be, only seeing Him move, whether or not I understand the results of that movement?

Would you come on this journey with Me?

I would believe the question need not be asked, but since it is then perhaps I must not have resolved a ‘yes’ answer in my heart. I would come, but it seems my heart has to come to an understanding of these questions (and answers) before I can take the first step. I want to say yes.

Or is your heart only with the familiar, the understandable?

And that’s probably what is tripping me, the need for knowing where I am going before deciding if I am going. It’s the lack of information. Where is my trust – in me, or in You?

Would you not want to be with the One who has created all things for discovery?

One would think so; after all, isn’t that what life should be, a movement through discovery?

Freedom is release from having to know, that one can be without the understanding of why.