You will always see the horizon of darkness as it approaches

Day 253

While I sense the need to be in the Light as a protection from the darkness, and as a response from the attack of what I see to be something not wanted in my life, I can also see the attraction of playing the ‘edges of darkness’ for what I believe as beneficial – in other words, what I think I hope You will give me in my walk with You. I have always known (and suggested) that the enemy would push in this direction to the extreme if he couldn’t convince with the performance of negative actions in my life. It’s a familiar tactic to give to one what he secretly wants, sometimes overwhelmingly, such that he moves to the other side – the dark side if you will – to live in the shadows.

Would I want wealth from You? Would I entertain extreme wealth from the enemy? Was He not tempted in the same manner? I see this, and can justify my actions in these edgy dark areas, yet know that it is not what I would want to do. Skirting the darkness only allows the opportunity to pull me in to it – I need to avoid these areas at every possible cost, for I shall surely lose, even if temporarily, my abode with You – and I really do not want that, for I love my place within You.

I am not strong in that I can skirt the edges of evil and remain untouched. I am not wise enough at the moment to be aware that this is what is happening to me even though I expect these actions from the enemy. And I cannot reject what I do not see happening, until it’s too late – and then I need You to rescue me, that once again I might see my place with You. Is that forgiveness? Likely so, but it is also a coming awareness of my walk with You, a continuing desire to be in the Light even as I am in the Light.

I long for your presence too yet desire for you to want Me above all else. There are always things – a life of pleasure, wants fulfilled, desires realized. Yet it is in the togetherness that the heart measures: the want of another, to be wanted. This is true contentment.

Contentment for most appears to be the things the enemy offers, the exercise of power given, the broken image of what one believes himself to be in completeness. If I was tempted in this way why not you? Yet I have overcome all, and as you are with Me, you shall overcome all too. Therefore, lean not into your own understanding but remain with Me, and together we shall see the darkness flee, for it is no more.

You will always see the horizon of darkness as it approaches – even if it comes as light you will know. You will not be overwhelmed in surprise if you are near to Me – there will be a moment of decision to enter or to resist, for it is there that the power of goodness is tested: will you overcome? Or will your eyes be full for that which you believe to satisfy the longing of your heart? There will be seasons of these temptations, for the enemy is wise in his pursuit – for he will go only to come again.

There is only one place of safety, one place to move to, one place where the heart is protected and where the eyes see clearly, and that is with Me.

If we claim to have fellowship with Him and yet walk in the darkness,

we lie and do not live out the truth.

– 1 John 1.6

For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood,

but against the rulers, against the authorities,

against the cosmic powers over this present darkness,

against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.

– Ephesians 6.12