The one intent of the heart is being with You

Day 122

I can look across the days from my last encounter and see the difficulties of life – of physical testing, which has kind of occupied my mind more than I would have desired; of financial testing – it’s difficult for my heart to lose much of what had been gained even though remaining ahead for the year; of job testing – it is again that time of year for enduring periods of stress; of seeing – the news stories, the contemplation of the future, the similarity of past ways of thinking. I believe missing the near daily interaction with hearing Your voice has much to do with what I sense is my spark of life.

I know there will be periods of what I am currently moving through, periods of questioning of process and procedures, of not seeing what I anticipate, of even losing some of what I have gained. But I also know that it is in these periods I achieve some understanding and wisdom, and know I need to be near You for that to happen.

I am never far from you. It is sometimes that you must move on your own with the understanding you have gained, for it is only in that process that you begin to realize the wisdom of being with Me. I can share, but also moving you into the realm of experience will that sharing become part of who you are and are becoming.

As with children, there is a time of moving in that which you have learned, only to learn more for having that encounter with life. What have you learned from this week of work, of investing, of others, of your behavior when facing difficulties, of your thought process, of your beliefs? Have they been enhanced with experience; have expectations ceased because of them; have you changed in any fashion, and if so, in what ways? These are a measure of a man’s intent to accomplish the one thing that should be closest to his heart, and that is being with Me.

If your understanding, by moving through these experiences, has drawn you closer to Me then they have been good for you, and time apart, or what you believe has been apart, has indeed been what was needed. Nothing has been lost, for we are together again, having never really been apart.

Additional

Work – responding immediately to others is better than putting off until a more convenient time. It is less stress to me, and without that frustration, keeps me close to Him.

Investing – losing has enhanced the system once again to determine the best way to enter additional positions within a trade. It is a process of continuing to believe He wants me to succeed in trading.

Others – having their best interests at heart, respecting their authority, helps me trust Him whether the situation works out well for me.

Behavior – if my focus remains on Him my behavior should follow; likely I have been doing the opposite: judging my closeness to Him based on my behavior.

Thought process – all over the map; I have not compartmentalized issues or circumstances with detailed personal attention, just embraced everything all at once. There is error in haste, even in thinking.

Beliefs – I did feel the panic (and dream) of not pursuing His voice and thinking the more that happens the less likely the relationship once had would be again – that is incorrect; He will never leave me.

Once again expectation has been restored, I am at peace with circumstances, and within the place I should be.