This is the way I would walk with all who would seek as you have

I would begin, not again as in starting over, but in continuing to discover my heart for you, for the Kingdom. The task is in not seeing each day as something new to be explored, as in stopping for a moment, then starting again.

It is a flow from moment to moment, within a presence whether asleep or awake, sunrise or sunset, end of day or the beginning of a new. It is being with You in all I do, and would do – in thought, desire, and action.

Is my task in all things for me alone or for others also? Would I seek to touch and not hold only for myself? Would the drive to reach others with these experiences be a secondary motivation too, along with my primary of being with You?

I know you will lead, and my vision is there, but these desires remain within my heart too.

I know, and understand, your heart for wanting to share with others these experiences we have together. I know of your desire to continue to press in ways that others might know as you. Yet you also understand that this is an intimate walk we have, a togetherness unknown by another and would remain unknown to any other. This is the way I would walk with all who would seek as you have, for it is the one that would seek Me that would find Me. I would not be apart from them even as I am not apart from you.

Your efforts should remain as they are: to explore within your heart the issues that would connect us even closer; to discover how your thinking creates as I do; to feel the oneness with all things, and others, created; to seek to have your awareness opened further to all that awaits you in being with Me in our kingdom. The joy of the journey is with Me and in that your desires for touching others will be met too.

What message would you have for others without first having explored all things with Me? Seek to be with Me and all these things will be added to your life, freely, without any effort other than to be with Me.

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‘He is the rewarder of them that diligently seek Him.’ The best reward of seeking is to find the thing that you are looking for. So the best reward that God, the Rewarder, gives is when He gives Himself. There are a great many other good things that come to the diligently seeking Christian soul, but the best thing is that God draws near.

Enoch sought God, came to God, and so he walked with God. The reward of his coming was continuous, calm communion, which gave him a companion in solitude, and one to walk at his side all through the darkness and the roughness, as well as the joys and the smoothness, of daily life.

Ah brethren, there is no reward comparable to the felt presence in our own quiet hearts of the God who has found us, and whom we have found. And if we have that, then He becomes, here and now, the reward of the diligent search, and the reward of it today carries in itself the assurance of the perfect reward of the coming time. ‘He walked with God, and God took him.’ That will be true of all of us.

There is only one seeking in life that is sure to result in the finding of what we seek. All other search – the quest after the chief good – if it runs in any other direction, is resultless and barren. But there is one course, and one only, in which the result is solid and certain. ‘I have never said to any of the seed of Jacob, seek ye My face in vain.’

If we seek He will be found of us, and so be our Rewarder and our reward.

 – MacLaren

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1 —

You've had the breakthrough.

You felt it land.

Now — immediately —

you want to give it away.

Tell someone.

Tell everyone.

Make it matter before it fades.

That desire is not wrong.

But it is early.

There's something that has to happen first.

Something that urgency will kill.

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On why the spring has to run deep before it can run wide.

2 —

You cannot give a walk.

You can only walk.

And let others see

how you walk.

The gift was never in the telling.

It was always in the going deeper.

3 —

The teacher who hasn't finished learning

is speaking from the crest of a wave.

The wave is real.

The knowing is real.

But waves break.

What endures is what's below the wave —

the floor that doesn't move,

the depth that took years

and silence

and failure

to reach.

4 —

There is a mistake that costs

both the seeker and the builder.

You find something that works.

You try to systematize it —

before you understand why it works.

The systematizing becomes the point.

And somewhere in the process,

the thing itself is lost.

5 —

What if intimacy

is not a reward

for those who persist long enough?

What if it is the method itself?

Not: prove yourself, then be welcomed.

Not: achieve, then receive.

Seek.

That's the whole instruction.

"Seek, and you will find."

Not because it's hiding.

Because the search is what prepares you

to receive what was always there.

6 —

Here is the thing about Presence

that cannot be transferred:

You can point to the door.

You can walk someone to the threshold.

You cannot carry them through.

Every seeker walks their own road.

Every arrival is their own arrival.

This is not a limitation.

This is the design.

7 —

The desire you feel —

to reach others,

to make your experience count for something beyond yourself —

that desire is not a distraction from the work.

It is part of the work.

But it has an order of operations.

Go deeper first.

The reaching will follow.

Not as a project you manage.

As a consequence you didn't plan.

8 —

You are not behind.

The years you spent

not yet ready to say this clearly —

those were not wasted.

They were formation.

You cannot shortcut formation.

You can only stay with Him

long enough

to become what He is making you.

9 —

The most intimate things

are never fully public.

Not because they should be kept secret.

But because they can only be found, not given.

You cannot broadcast a Spring.

You can only live near it

until others notice

you are not thirsty.

Then bring them to the water.

One at a time.

As close as they're ready to go.

And trust that the Spring

can take them the rest of the way.