A moment of walking with God

Day 49

I am willing to commit to this conversation, whether true or not in spiritual form, or physically rational: I have heard, and seen in letter, words of belonging, comfort, sharing, love, commitment, and revelation I have never experienced before in all my years of what I believe is walking with God.

My history with You has been ordinary in my mind, enough to understand and yet to still desire to be with You. But I feel the revelation has been small; I was hoping there would have been so much more. I suppose, up to now, I have settled for the walk as it is.

But this has been different – this has seemed much more personal, much more emotional, with much more expectation. It’s as if there is now some life in the relationship, and I would like more of that.

And so I will commit to this process as I think I can trust You to lead me in the right direction if I go astray. If wrong, I will still treasure this time, this conversation, these words. And if it ends I will have had a moment when I truly felt I was walking with God.